Emails From The Ex
I got an email a couple weeks back from an ex. She wanted to know how I was doing. I knew for SURE that this wasn’t going anywhere. The only reason I read the damn thing is because it’d burn a hole in my psyche knowing there was an email from someone I’ve seen naked sitting in my Trash. Can I TTIWOP myself here?
Why am I supposed to care what you are up to? There’s only one reason I can think of: you haven’t been getting enough attention by your own devices.
I’d much rather reconnect more classically: you see me out at a club tongue fighting with a hot brunette that’s skinnier than you. Immature? Definitely, but least it’s more self-aware than a late night random email.
lol. I wonder if my ex feels this way about me? Unfortunately, I have a feeling he does. Judging by his lack of responses to my cordial holiday texts. Also, what the fuck does TTIWOP mean?
In any case, I dare to disagree with this part: ‘Why am I supposed to care what you are up to? There’s only one reason I can think of: you haven’t been getting enough attention by your own devices.’
Without coming off as a conceited bitch, lack of attention has nothing to do with it, at least not in my situation. I really do still care for my ex, we were best friends. So is it so fucking farfetched that I am wondering how he’s doing?
I do see where you’re coming from though, which is why—after a good year of hoping—I have come to accept that closure will not likely come for me. Ever. So I’m done reaching out.
Nonetheless because of our history, I can say without flinching that I am still grateful to him for what all 3 years of our relationship has taught me. I miss him a lot sometimes. Then I remember that we are different people from who we were when we were happy together, and have moved forward since. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t occasionally cross my mind. I still wish him the best. I hope he’s as happy with his life as I am with mine.
That’s all I guess. *Shrug…
